Friday 24 April 2015

Unnoticed

You pluck a leaf from the tree without much care,
Just like you force her to abort that girl child,
Thinking it wouldn't cause much pain.
You step carelessly on those daises bordering the pavement,
Just like you ignore that roadside poor hungry boy.
You don’t realize the roles they play.
You try to bonsai the plants,
Just like you try to control every aspect of your child’s life.
It’s for good, you say!
You plucked a frail unnamed flower and tore its leaves, playing a game that only you enjoy,
Just like you mock that boy calling him sissy because he varies from the conventional mainstream
You axe a tree and cause its fall,
Just like you ignore your old parents,
For their purpose is served.

Those axed trees, those unborn children, those unfinished tales – that go unnoticed;
Were all in the scheme of life, you think
Yet, you bring down the night sky on the park street roads;
Burning candles, like twinkling stars in your hand
And rent the air with thundering catchy slogans,
Trying to harmonize the discords
Promising to change the society for better!

Saturday 18 April 2015

Someday

We will meet someday,
Walk together a little while.
Roses and carnations should mark the start,
                    and fancy restaurants would be fine
We could sit in those dimly lit beautiful restaurants,
                   having small talks about things insignificant.
Peppy tunes or soft music could border the background,
Then saunter back hand-in-hand when the day is done.

We met someday,
Quite differently it turned out thus.
Came across him a thousand times,
                   in each stranger's face in the busy Esplanade crowd.
Only resounding cacophony of the city stands as a proof,
                   of those quick short romantic glances exchanged.
Societal divisions, the only wall between us
That we made no efforts to break down.

We will meet again someday
No, roses and carnations wouldn't mark the start.
The crowded city buses
                  shall mark the beginning.
The hawker's song,
                  the only song that'll soothe the ears.
And closing my eyes, I'll imagine a better world
With you by my side.

Wednesday 15 April 2015

Those last enigmatic words

                                                  She woke up to the sound of the alarm clock, searched for her hair-clip from under her pillow, tied her hair in a loose bun and set out for the daily household chores. Sleep still lingered on in her eyes making it appear redder than on other days. Yesterday had been a long day at office, followed by a late night office party and therefore she couldn’t get enough sleep.
                          The calendar reminded her that there was a parent-teachers’ meeting today at Sneha’s school. Sneha, her daughter, fifteen now has always held a good academic record much like her mother and was polite and shy in nature. Her teachers never had much complain against her. Meera knew that Sameer, her husband, wouldn’t be able to make it to Sneha’s school today.  He’d have to leave for Kochi today and therefore the responsibility of attending the meeting was on Meera.
                           Meera sat with her morning coffee and the newspaper at the table quickly scanning through all the headlines, when one news article particularly caught her attention. ‘Naxalite leader injured but escapes being caught by the police…’- it said. The news chilled her spine. The Naxalite leader was none other than Niladitya Roy, the boy who had made her heart skip a beat during her college days…that boy with whom she had often imagined life together…that boy who had broken her heart because he chose his dedication to his work above her. Life had been terribly hard after the break-up. Her academics suffered a setback as she could not concentrate on her studies. She still remembered those sleepless nights, when her pillow would be wet with her tears and those long sessions with the psychiatrist. But then life had gradually moved on, as her parents had said it would. She had got a job for herself, got married (albeit her parents had chosen a husband for her), had a child and was raising her in the best possible way she could. In the initial years of her marriage she had often wondered how she would react if she ever came across him. She had often struggled with her own mind in trying to forget him and be happy in her married life, as she had promised to her parents. But the human mind works in strange ways, forgetting things that it should remember and remembering things that it would rather forget.
                         Meera wanted to call him up. She still had his phone number but there were very little chances that he would still retain the same number for twenty-six years. And, moreover, what would Sameer and Sneha think of her if they ever came to know about it? No, she wasn’t supposed to call him up.
                       Meera finished her coffee and kept down the newspaper and was just about to get started with her household works when suddenly her phone started to ring. She checked it. It was Nilanjana, her college friend. She picked up the phone and started chatting with her. They talked about their good old college days, their families, their careers and then just when Meera was about to disconnect the line, Nilanjana asked,’ Meera, do you still remember Nil da?’An awkward silence followed. Meera didn’t know what to say. Nilanjana continued,’…you might remember that I was his cousin…’ Meera had almost forgotten the fact. ‘…he got seriously injured while trying to escape the police and has lost an arm but somehow he managed to escape. He is now at Pishi’s place. He wants to meet you. I think you remember the address, if not I can text it to you…’ No answer came from Meera. ‘Meera? Can you hear me?’ inquired Nilanjana. Meera disconnected the call.
                   ‘Why now? What now?’ thought Meera as the whole world seemed blurred in her teary eyes. She was surprised to find that even after so many years this boy, now a man, could again set her heart amidst a whirlwind of emotions.
                   Sameer left for his work at ten in the morning. He would be back from Kochi almost after a week. Meera had taken a leave from her office that day because the parents-teachers’ meeting was scheduled at twelve in the afternoon. The meeting went well and while returning Meera dropped Sneha off at the Indian Dance Academy for her dance classes. Watching Sneha had always been a pleasure to her eyes and therefore she would often remain present at Sneha’s dance classes, watching her learn. But today something troubled her. She thought of driving back home. Sneha could board a bus to return home, she was a big girl now, Meera thought.
                  On her way back, something (she didn’t know what exactly) forced Meera to drive to Niladitya’s Pishi’s (aunt) place. She knew the address; she had been there many times before. She still remembered all those Narus(sweets) Pishi used to make for her whenever Niladitya and Meera paid a visit to her. Pishi had always told her that she would make the perfect wife for Nil. Meera had always blushed at the thought.
                   Her car stopped before the gate of the once well painted double-storeyed building. The beautiful flower garden that the house once boasted was now gone. Long wild grass had filled up the place making it appear rather haunted. She wouldn’t have recognized the building had she not remembered the house number. She went in and knocked at the door. Pishi opened it. It took her a while to recognize that it was Meera. ‘Come in, my dear’, she said in her usual soft and familiar voice. Pishi led her to Niladitya’s room and left them alone on the pretext that she’ll fetch them something to eat.
                Meera stood still. She was looking at him, while he lay on his bed with his right hand bandaged that had been cut off from the elbows. He looked much different now, his eyes has lost its lustre, his hair had grown white. She didn’t know what to say. The cracks in her heart which she thought had mended with time had started to show again. Each second seemed a constant struggle to fight back the tears. Meera had turned back to leave when Niladitya stopped her. ‘Meera, do you still remember that poem, the one which you used to recite to me so often?’ asked Niladitya.
               Meera didn’t turn back. Poetry was a brilliant way to convey your feelings or thoughts for someone, she had always thought. She was good at reciting poems and had won several prizes at it but had given it up when she broke up with him.
                                    ‘Chaigo ami tomarey chai, tomai ami chai’, continued Niladitya reciting one of her favorite Bengali poems
                                     ‘Ei kothatai shodai mone bolte jeno pai
                                      R ja kichu bashonate, ghure berai dine rate
                                      Miththa, she shob miththa
                                     O go tomai ami chai…’
Tears rolled down her cheek. She didn’t turn back. Instead, she headed towards the door. His words held no more meaning for her… or did it?